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May 8th, 2009
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monnomestemily.blogspot.com
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[Thursday
April 9th, 2009
12:27am] |
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My good day was intoxicating.
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[Friday
March 13th, 2009
11:04am] |
a picture of you in your room
Best i've got. and its actually the room i lived in with bryan. AND you cant ever see it haha.
a picture of you very drunk
21st birthday massacre.
a picture of you on your birthday, or on your favorite holiday
they made me dinner. a real dinner.
the youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form
i dont have a comment on this.
a picture of you in one of your favorite outfits
i love those tights.
a picture of you making a goofy face at the camera
we were on splash mountain. the mountain got us big time.
a picture you might have edited to make yourself look more attractive
i honestly dont know what laurence did to these photos to make me look so pale and pretty.
a picture of a night you regret
this was the night the ghoul chased me at Knotts scary farm. I hated this night.
a picture of you truly being yourself
smoking? yes. i have about 1000 photos of my doing just this. but this is my favorite pipe.
the most recent picture of you
the killer clam at crabby's on valentines day with our awesome group on anti vday pro get drunk day friends.
a picture of you being absolutely ridiculous
Mike's Dance Attack Welcome Back party. aerobix themed.
a picture of you showing off a new haircut/color
best color ever. ugh.
a picture of a time in your life thats over, but you wish it wasn't
beauty school. but mostly i just wish i had passion for it like i did when it started.
a picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is
dear lord... im glad im not still this girl.
a picture of you when you were anything but happy
Lolo took this photo of me taking a shot of tequila out of the St. George shot glass we bought while driving from Orange to Salt Lake. After this photo was taken we went outside and shattered that shot glass on the pavement. it wasn't my best moment. I no longer drink tequila.
a picture of you that you had no idea was being taken
i probably wouldn't be giving her that look if i knew there was a camera. ha.
a picture of you when you were a different person than you are now
i would do it all over again, but i'd do it a little different.
a picture of you with someone you love
i love the boy and girl we were then.
a picture of how you'd like the world to see you
a picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day
filled with daylight
a picture of a time when everything was changing
I was trying so hard to make things work. He was trying to tell me it was too late.
a picture that makes your heart hurt
not much to say, the whole thing kinda sucked.
a picture that makes your heart smile
we had fun doing nothing.
a picture of one of the best days/nights of your life
any day when theres a smile on my face is the best day ever.
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[Tuesday
March 10th, 2009
7:21pm] |
"We all have types, courtney. I go for guys with girlfriends, you go for weirdos."
Shrug.
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[Saturday
February 21st, 2009
3:50pm] |
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Now finally it was time for her to pull away from him. Time to leave her little girl fantasies in the sandbox along with the other forgotten toys and move on. He didn't love her. Any dreams to the contrary were simply that.
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[Thursday
January 22nd, 2009
11:37pm] |
You don't know me
at all.
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[Tuesday
January 20th, 2009
8:48pm] |
Today brought change.
I hope that Obama can give this country the chance to be great again. I have hope. Today I was proud to be an American.
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[Wednesday
January 14th, 2009
1:44pm] |
I'll go away again
so you can want me.
We all love things
when they're gone.
Catch me if you can,
I'm only walking
to keep my soles all
old and worn.
I'll take the time
to make you mine
with poetry
and dark red wine.
I'll sip it fast
and read the words
so slow--ly.
And when our glasses
are half gone,
I'll sing to you
a sweet soul song.
And you'll tell me
that i'm your one
and only.
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[Wednesday
January 14th, 2009
12:05am] |
im happy by myself.
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[Sunday
January 11th, 2009
11:18pm] |
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My tooth hurts so bad I want to rip it out.
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[Friday
January 9th, 2009
8:50pm] |
You can pick your friends and you can pick your nose, but you can't pick your friend's nose.
Or can you?
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[Sunday
January 4th, 2009
11:04pm] |
I'm choosing to be optimistic here, but I'm planning on staying home a lot and spending no money so I can pay off my credit cards, take a week off to go to seattle/canada in march and a week in april to go to portland. And then in june I plan on moving. And everything will work out the way I want it to because, hell... its a new year and its about damn time I get my silly life together.
Take that, anxiety! BOOYAHHH
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[Tuesday
December 30th, 2008
11:35am] |
Bring on the new year.
Goodbye 2008
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[Sunday
December 28th, 2008
5:48pm] |
Johns in orange county again.
And again, I will not see him.
Chapter closed.
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[Friday
December 19th, 2008
12:27am] |
It all matters and doesn't matter all at the same time.
Its no longer your fault.
The fault is all mine.
♥
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[Tuesday
December 16th, 2008
12:16pm] |
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I'm just sitting here in my parents beautiful backyard on a beautiful december afternoon. How is it possible for me to be so supremely unhappy here. How did my whole financial world cumble around me so quickly? I never wanted to come back here, yet here I am. Unpacked and loathing every moment I'm cooped up in this unforgiving city. Oceanside. It sounds pretty enough. But no. I long for orange county and all is phony residents. I should enjoy the home cooked meals and dads spent just hanging around the house with my family. Waking up at 8am to share a breakfast at Paul's with my father.... I do like spending time with him. With them. But I miss the inevidable drive back home to my apartment in huntington. My apartment. Mine. Not hers. Not her and that twit of a makeshift friend's. That and the fact that no one calls. You move out of the county and you're dead to everyone. Irritating and totally unexpected. Alas, here I sit in beautiful lawn furniture on beautiful green grass under a beauiful clear blue sky, and all I want to do is cry.
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[Wednesday
December 10th, 2008
6:40pm] |
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I realized tonight that I am still right where I was before. It all occured to me whilst sitting on face book, laughing at an ongoing conversation between two of my friends. And as I was reading I saw her name. Her name, in bold print linking to her page. I hadn't thought about her in so long. But I had thought about the others. And therre were so many others. But her name staring me in the face made my heart ache and my eyes teary. What did this girl have that I didn't? Was I not loyal? Was I not loving? Was I not completely understanding? Am i not still all of these things and more? Yet I am still hanging out on the back burner just waiting for you to see how perfect I am for you. Or maybe I'm waiting for me to see how pathetic I am.
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[Sunday
November 30th, 2008
8:03pm] |
I'm keyless.
I have a 36in. tv, a box of dishes, two hookahs, a laundry basket full of clothes, 3 pillows, and a comforter shoved in my car.
Goodbye Orange County.
Hellloooo oceanside. Ugh.
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[Monday
November 24th, 2008
1:15am] |
I'm being sued
This is absolutely ridiculous.
Amy: if you're back from thailand- you call me as soon as you read this.
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[Sunday
November 9th, 2008
11:59pm] |
so, i went asearchin through olllld (capitalize that OLD ) photos on facebook just peeking through my very documented occasions of fun here in orange county. you know, just something you do when youre about to leave somewhere... and i realized the most fun i had while living here is being best friends with jeanne and melanie. everynight was a party and everyone was always there and it was always a good time.
im sort of kicking myself for being so delusional in leaving orange behind so readily.
one more thing to put in column "i really wish i didn't do that"
side note: leaving in exactly 3 weeks; havn't packed a goddamn thing.
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